I banged my head against the wall of the shower 4 times. Hard. Before I realized that I might cause serious damage.
After that, I thoroughly rinsed the conditioner out of my hair.
Maybe that was why my head felt so heavy.
I turned off the water and watched the soap run down the drain.
I tried to get rid of this pain earlier tonight…
I recalled taking a lighter to my right calf. No dice. The burn near my knee was already disinfected and covered due to the OCD. Then paranoia pulsed through my dehydrated veins.
I applied more coconut oil to the scars, burns, welts, and bruises that covered my body.
I could only hope for repentance at that point…