The most honest ever.
Hey, I’m sorry I keep doing this. I do love you. In a way that I wish was only platonic but I don’t know how to just get rid of that part of myself. I have really tried. Hard. Anyway, I thought I should let you know how I feel. I think it’s hard to keep talking to you or having any relationship to you. That’s why I am taking a break from talking to you. A huge part of me wants to keep doing it, but I feel like that part of me is bad for my life. I don’t know what to expect anymore when things go from bad to worse. I don’t know where to go from here. Any opinion?
Is this ever going to happen? Am I just scratching a scar? Is there relief?
I’m drowning here.