This night is filled with loneliness.
It reeks of it.


Today I feel ok. I woke up at 1:00 pm and dressed. I missed my appointment with dr. Koeller this morning. No one called.
I went to work at 3:00pm and it was very busy. I got a text from Michael saying that he has been having troubling thoughts. I texted him back. He said that he would like to talk about what happened on Thursday sometime. I said that would be ok.
I drank some beer tonight.
I just wish everything would be ok.


(via devils-sweet)


Portland is hott…

Portland is hott…


Jack London

Jack London


Mint, lemon liquor, vodka. Bartenders special at Jack London Bar. SW Portland.

Mint, lemon liquor, vodka. Bartenders special at Jack London Bar. SW Portland.


The best fries in the fucking world!

The best fries in the fucking world!


The best bowl in Portland @ River Pig Saloon

The best bowl in Portland @ River Pig Saloon


River Pig Saloon. Downtown Portland.

River Pig Saloon. Downtown Portland.


Today has been weird. I didn’t wake up until like 2:00 and I had to be at work by 3:00. I was feeling pretty nauseous for the first few hours so I went to the whole body department and they gave me some stuff to help settle my stomach. Work was ok. On my break I finally got to talk to Michael for a little bit. I also got out early tonight.
I’m still really lonely. I haven’t met anyone who has wanted to hang out outside of work. I have Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday off.


arcadenation:

Ground Kontrol | Portland, OR

arcadenation:

Ground Kontrol | Portland, OR


So I’ve been working at whole foods in the Pearl for about 3 weeks now. So far I love it. The worst day still had good moments. I have worked with really cool people too. I don’t know all of their names yet, but most people are really nice and super supportive.
I had an appointment with Julianna (my dietician) and Dr. Koeller (my pcp) this morning… I was really nervous to see Julianna because I had not contacted her in over 3 weeks, but it actually turned out to be really helpful. She and I made a few meal plans with some insulin doses. She wants me to see her every week and email her every 3 days to keep myself accountable. She did make me have an ensure and take some insulin during our session, which wasn’t ideal, but I was ok with it. Anyway, she updated Dr. Koeller while I was waiting in between appointments. Dr. Koeller kind of intimidates me, but the more I talked to her, the more comfortable I felt.
I’ve developed weird things like allergies and acne since I’ve moved to Portland, so she gave me some prescriptions and referrals to a few therapists and endocrinologists. I’m hoping that stuff will help… Anyway, I see Dr. Koeller again on Monday.
I was really tired this morning, and I had to be at work at 3:00. Once I got there though I felt a lot more energized. Tonight was the first night I didn’t have to stay until close, so that was nice.
I work again tomorrow at 3:00, and I work with Jess again. It should be good.


sterility:

i won’t forget you but i’m over you now2014

sterility:

i won’t forget you but i’m over you now
2014

(via tales-of-a-beautiful-tragedy)


A lean night…

A lean night…


Hit as fuck

Hit as fuck